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Hey guys! Well I started blogging in August 2009, because prior to that, I had been feeling pretty average, down in the dumps, didn’t really know what I wanted for my future or what to do with myself and it was really starting to get me down. Around the time I started blogging, I discovered a number of Healthy Living blogs, and I immediately became hooked, reading them everyday, soaking up the positivity and love that these happy, healthy bloggers were emitting, just through words in cyberspace.

I wondered how I could feel that happy and positive, so I looked at the way I was living and realized some changes needed to be made. Before I started living a truly healthy lifestyle, I had very low self-esteem, I felt worthless, I wondered how anyone could ever love me, I had been in an abusive relationship a few months prior that had left me feeling weak, lost and completely depressed. I struggled with disordered eating, I’d feel the need to count kilo-joules but then give up and binge on chocolate and other high fat, high sugar foods which left me feeling absolutely wretched.

After I found blogs like healthytippingpoint.com, ohsheglows.com and eatliverun.com, I realized I didn’t need to restrict my kilo-joules and stress myself out by wondering how much I’d eaten on that particular day. I realized I just needed to eat the right foods and snack wisely. I could still have chocolate, my FAVOURITE food, just not as often. I started out slowly, removing certain things from my daily diet, such as the bowl of ice cream I’d for so long been unable to resist and had consumed daily and felt horrible about it. I built up from there with support from my ex-marathon runner Mother. After a while Healthy eating was just second nature to me.

I felt inspired to begin my own blog. Obviously though it didn’t really take off very well as I hadn’t determined a “niche” first, I then decided I would continue the well-loved theme of Healthy Living.

I’m a runner and have been running since March 2009, before then I HATED exercise. Truly! I was a lazy little sh*t and you’d be lucky to get me to walk to the letter box to collect the mail. I’ve always been a very musically orientated person, and until recently, saw myself doing nothing but rocking out in a band for a living.

Much to my mothers dismay..

So you see how this lack of exercise, bad attitude and negative outlook on healthy living, contributed to my very low self-esteem and massive depression that I battled along with insomnia for months..

I was aware that my mother had been a marathon runner when she was in her twenties along with my Grandmother and Grandfather, but I’d always disregarded running and never gave it a chance. Then one day I was flipping through some old photo albums of Mum back in the day and I stumbled across a whole bunch of photos from her race days. There were tonnes of photos of her crossing the finish line and at the start line with her best friends and all of a sudden something in me clicked. And just like that I began to gradually ease my way into running.

I became hooked.

However, I never really had very much motivation, or anything “keeping me going” as it were, until I started blogging and reading other healthy living blogs. I find that reading about races that these other woman have completed or their training schedules ALONE, motivate me in so many ways to get out there and run. I LOVE running now and can’t imagine not doing it. For me it is the greatest stress reliever and it has completely changed my life. It sounds tacky and cliche, but it’s true

I have two years of high school left and when I finish that I plan to attend University and do a Bachelor in Sport and Exercise Science, followed by a Post-Grad degree in journalism to fulfill my dreams of becoming a professional fitness/health/nutrition blogger and journalist, maybe even a personal trainer.

The subjects I’ll be taking in my next year of high school are English Excellence, Math Combo, P.E Elite, Biology, Chemistry and Health.

Check out my blog as I update on my training schedules, my rough time through high school and my gradual completion of long-term goals.

Oh, and I welcome ALL comments, questions and suggestions